My life has been so complicated these last few years words cannot convey the changes I've went through. I've missed my community so much but the break was good it has given me clarity which has in turn shown me that this is where i belong once forever and always. Meditation has taught me that if you have something that makes you happy stay with it.
Some things haven't changed there are still those who tried to make it a negative experience but thankfully for every bad person well every 10 bad people you find the one who is true and genuine who puts forth the effort to try to make you happy who serves without ego and with selflessness there are few out there that can make this claim. Fewer still who can live up to it. I've found one such creature and i have hopes to find more.
There is such a joy to bdsm that makes me feel like i belong and as many probably can agree belonging is not a feeling we get often in this life. I've decided that among the change of coming back to bdsm and of changing my hair over more one of the major changes in my life will be to move away from the family farm out on my own hopefully to go onto greener pastures pun intended i do want to start school and use this as a opportunity to further my life but i also want to use it as a opportunity to get more real time bdsm experience as well as the freedom to do more frequent online i want to get back into the full swing of things again.
Now I'm in the best shape and situation I've been in years my mental health is doing well giving me the happiness and inspiration to keep going and being the best most creative guides i can be and I'm in a happy relationship the first I've had since my divorce and it's awesome to feel almost complete with someone who supports and encourages my bdsm interests I'm finally off the daily pain killers and I'm working towards the goal of my breast reduction my first appointment is in September and I've lost around 40 pounds from all the hiking and working out I've been doing I'm in good all around shape and cannot wait to help use this new found strength to guide others.
Another thing that is amazing to me is just how much I've been inspired of late I've been doing research into new fetishes feeling inspired to write again it's a beautiful up that i feel will start around this time. I've had a marked interest in getting to play with hypnosis learning meditation in the mental institution made me realize just how malleable the human mind is just a little tweak here a prod there and before long happily following my ever little whim. That's all for now I'll write more as the feeling of inspiration comes.
Wednesday, August 23, 2017
Monday, July 29, 2013
He'll never know
He spotted her across the bar, it was a local cowboy bar and even though he wasn't really a cowboy he knew women liked them so he dressed the part. She seemed to look and act the part short cut hair under a black felt cowboy hat with a pink hat band short denim daisy dukes with a pink checkered shirt and black cowboy boots with some slightly scuffed looking spurs (in other words they'd gotten some use and weren't just for show). She was standing at the bar a drink in her hand slightly glistening with a bit of sweat, he had to go talk to her shyness be damned she was the prettiest thing in the bar because unlike all the barbie dolls she had her own uniqueness to her plus he loved a gal with piercings and tattoos.
"Hello, my name is Chris" he said walking up to her and offering a hand for her to shake. She shook his hand replying back "I'm Lola what brings you here doesn't seem like your kind of place" she said giving him a once over, he was wearing all the right things but she could spot why he stuck out to her right away though they were right they were new to new and in too good of a condition for the clothes he wore to really be a cowboy. "Uh, i'm not sure what your getting at here Miss Lola" He replied feeling slightly nervous like he was so transparent to her that it terrified and intrigued him.
"I'm getting at the fact that if your a bonafide real deal cowboy your in your sunday best cause your cleaner than some of the city bitches here (referring to the girls who dress up as cowgirls to pretend to be tomboys)" she said dragging him by the collar into the womens bathroom and kicking him down to a sitting position on the toilet she locked the stall door locking them in together. The only reason she'd been able to over power him was because she caught him off guard but by the time she was done with him he'd be begging to follow out any order she would give.
He sat looking at her wide eyed like a deer in the headlights unsure of what the hell had just happened but as he was starting to form a sentence in his mind she dropped her shorts to the stalls floor revealing even more of her muscular thighs and her pussy, his mind automatically going to fucking her he smirked before seeing a look in her eye that worried him a bit. "Now now now you don't think you'll be able to use that worthless cock do you?" she asked simultaneously climbing him as she did so planting her pussy over him and sitting on his face, he could barely breathe but if he couldn't fuck her with his cock he'd let his tongue go to town in it's stead.
Before long his face was soaked he gasped rapidly after she climbed off him "that was intense" he said with a stupid grin on his face which she immediately slapped off "who told you you could talk? now strip" she said with calm authority. Him expecting to get his chance to fuck her quickly did as she asked only to be told to get on his knees "i'm not doing that" he said arrogantly before she pulled a leather strapped flogger out of her purse and began reddening his back until he did as she asked.
Bent over on his hands and knees he felt vunerable especially so when he felt her probing his ass and his ass began to be filled with a ponys tail butt plug, having never experienced this before he felt uncomfortable and full. She sat upon his back he could feel the flogger tickle his side as she did "time for a ride horse, what not the ride you expected?" she asked giggling he stayed still momentarily shocked only for her to get him going with the flogger again.
She had made him crawl all over the public restroom before allowing him to lay down butt plug still filling him as she once again face sat him, this time after a couple climaxes she began to tighten her thighs around him making him unable to breath until he passed out.
He awoke on the floor of the bathroom at some point later feeling sore and wondering where the woman had went was it real? or did he imagine it.
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"Hello, my name is Chris" he said walking up to her and offering a hand for her to shake. She shook his hand replying back "I'm Lola what brings you here doesn't seem like your kind of place" she said giving him a once over, he was wearing all the right things but she could spot why he stuck out to her right away though they were right they were new to new and in too good of a condition for the clothes he wore to really be a cowboy. "Uh, i'm not sure what your getting at here Miss Lola" He replied feeling slightly nervous like he was so transparent to her that it terrified and intrigued him.
"I'm getting at the fact that if your a bonafide real deal cowboy your in your sunday best cause your cleaner than some of the city bitches here (referring to the girls who dress up as cowgirls to pretend to be tomboys)" she said dragging him by the collar into the womens bathroom and kicking him down to a sitting position on the toilet she locked the stall door locking them in together. The only reason she'd been able to over power him was because she caught him off guard but by the time she was done with him he'd be begging to follow out any order she would give.
He sat looking at her wide eyed like a deer in the headlights unsure of what the hell had just happened but as he was starting to form a sentence in his mind she dropped her shorts to the stalls floor revealing even more of her muscular thighs and her pussy, his mind automatically going to fucking her he smirked before seeing a look in her eye that worried him a bit. "Now now now you don't think you'll be able to use that worthless cock do you?" she asked simultaneously climbing him as she did so planting her pussy over him and sitting on his face, he could barely breathe but if he couldn't fuck her with his cock he'd let his tongue go to town in it's stead.
Before long his face was soaked he gasped rapidly after she climbed off him "that was intense" he said with a stupid grin on his face which she immediately slapped off "who told you you could talk? now strip" she said with calm authority. Him expecting to get his chance to fuck her quickly did as she asked only to be told to get on his knees "i'm not doing that" he said arrogantly before she pulled a leather strapped flogger out of her purse and began reddening his back until he did as she asked.
Bent over on his hands and knees he felt vunerable especially so when he felt her probing his ass and his ass began to be filled with a ponys tail butt plug, having never experienced this before he felt uncomfortable and full. She sat upon his back he could feel the flogger tickle his side as she did "time for a ride horse, what not the ride you expected?" she asked giggling he stayed still momentarily shocked only for her to get him going with the flogger again.
She had made him crawl all over the public restroom before allowing him to lay down butt plug still filling him as she once again face sat him, this time after a couple climaxes she began to tighten her thighs around him making him unable to breath until he passed out.
He awoke on the floor of the bathroom at some point later feeling sore and wondering where the woman had went was it real? or did he imagine it.
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Monday, April 15, 2013
Fling into spring contest
come one come all step right up to my fling into spring contest. All
unowned and unUC subs are welcome to participate starting today april
15th and ending may 31st there will be a task trial and tribute contest,
the tasks will include humiliation forced intox, body worship, writing
tasks such as writing lines writing erotica etc cbt, and many many more
that will be tailored to each individual participant. Whoever tributes
the most during this period will win the contest which will have several
prizes the grand prize
winner will win the following: cam session, never released modeling
photos, custom pictures, a erotica written by me tailored to them and a
phone call or texts if your in the USA. the first runner up will win the
following: 1 custom photo. and lastly the second runner up will win the
following: a erotica written by me tailored to them. So by now your
wondering how to enter right? of course you are well heres how you
contact me stating you'd like to enter then you'll be asked for the
first tribute of the contest then your trials will begin. Do you have
what it takes to compete for my attention?
tributes can be sent via amazon GC PP and venmo. All tributes during this period will be put towards the contest which means that if your already serving me and regularly tributing if you want to participate let me know and i'll start your trials too. If you fail a trial you'll be expected to pay a 25$ fine for failure which will also go to your contest total.(contact can be done via email xrockinraptorx@aol.com)
tributes can be sent via amazon GC PP and venmo. All tributes during this period will be put towards the contest which means that if your already serving me and regularly tributing if you want to participate let me know and i'll start your trials too. If you fail a trial you'll be expected to pay a 25$ fine for failure which will also go to your contest total.(contact can be done via email xrockinraptorx@aol.com)
Thursday, April 11, 2013
Deprived
He had asked what their time together would be this time, she had simply sent him a text with two words "sensory deprivation" he knew to be at her place undressed and on his knees with his hands behind his head. She walked into the room a smirk on her cherry red lips, she hooked a leash on his collar which he slipped on his hands and knees and crawled about on his hands and knees following her around. She lead him into the room blindfolding him and having him lay on the bed their were closed toy chests on either side of the bed he had no idea what was coming and he didn't care as long as she was involved.
"i'm going to place ear plugs in your ears so that you get the full experience if you want things to stop safeword otherwise i'll just continue" She stated tying each of his limbs into the underbed retraints "yes mistress thank you mistress" he replied as he felt his ear canal fill with a ear plug in each ear causing the sounds around him to be muffled. He could feel his heart racing the intensity of the silence and dark combined with being tied was more intense than he expected. He couldn't gauge if it have been minutes or hours before the warmth of the whip connected with his stomach muscles the stinging heat made him flinch almost crying out she had caught him off guard each moment punctuated with another lashing.
Her hand caressed the welts the whip had left making him sigh at the softness and warmth of her touch she'd casually pinch and welt every once in a while causing him to whimper. Normally these small tortures wouldn't bug him in the slightest but not knowing what was coming not knowing whether the next touch would be soft or hard loving or harsh was really beginning to get into his head he was debating chickening out on her but he knew she had chosen this task special for him and if he chickened out now it would disappoint her something he wouldn't dream of doing to his mistress.
He pulled in breath in a gasp as he felt his cock being toyed with by a wet mouth he knew it wasn't his mistress because he knew she wouldn't lower herself to that level plus he felt another sting of a whip and knew that his goddess must've brought someone else in, who he couldn't begin to guess and he hadn't cum in such a long time that he didn't care who at that point. The whips stings were almost forgotten with the intensity he felt between his legs whoever was sucking his cock definitely knew what the were doing it was all he had not to cum right away but he knew that would disappoint his mistress.
he felt his mistress rubbing something maybe lotion into his welts his nipples anywhere that would prove sensitive before long he knew why the heat from the icy hot made him groan the happenings of his cock were momentarily forgotten as he felt the stinging burn of the welts intensify with every passing second. He tried listening for his mistress and giggle of approval or even a hmm of disappointment but the ear plugs blocked out everything he was in his own little world of pleasure and pain not sure if he was doing good or bad entirely isolated from the world as he usually knew it and he could only focus on what was happening then and there.
Whoever was sucking his cock had added a ice cube or two to their mouth which only intensified the sensation before he knew it the swirling of cool ice and warm tongue had him cumming uncontrollably and just hoping he had pleased his mistress as he could hold on no longer. After cumming he laid there weak only able to focus on the icy hot sighing as he felt a wash cloth wiping away the icy hot his hands and feet becoming free the feeling of the ear plugs being removed his world filling with sound once again light being brought in again as the blindfold was removed.
He had come thinking this would be an easy game he was wrong, when the blindfold was removed everything was put away and his mistress was the only one in the room she had made it where he would never know entirely what happened which only aroused him more. he knelt at her feet kissing her foot each time he'd lay a bill at her feet eventually emptying his wallet entirely. "good boy" she said at last as she walked him out the door "i'll be calling upon you again soon" she said to him a smirk on her face he knew she'd have more in store for him the next time.
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"i'm going to place ear plugs in your ears so that you get the full experience if you want things to stop safeword otherwise i'll just continue" She stated tying each of his limbs into the underbed retraints "yes mistress thank you mistress" he replied as he felt his ear canal fill with a ear plug in each ear causing the sounds around him to be muffled. He could feel his heart racing the intensity of the silence and dark combined with being tied was more intense than he expected. He couldn't gauge if it have been minutes or hours before the warmth of the whip connected with his stomach muscles the stinging heat made him flinch almost crying out she had caught him off guard each moment punctuated with another lashing.
Her hand caressed the welts the whip had left making him sigh at the softness and warmth of her touch she'd casually pinch and welt every once in a while causing him to whimper. Normally these small tortures wouldn't bug him in the slightest but not knowing what was coming not knowing whether the next touch would be soft or hard loving or harsh was really beginning to get into his head he was debating chickening out on her but he knew she had chosen this task special for him and if he chickened out now it would disappoint her something he wouldn't dream of doing to his mistress.
He pulled in breath in a gasp as he felt his cock being toyed with by a wet mouth he knew it wasn't his mistress because he knew she wouldn't lower herself to that level plus he felt another sting of a whip and knew that his goddess must've brought someone else in, who he couldn't begin to guess and he hadn't cum in such a long time that he didn't care who at that point. The whips stings were almost forgotten with the intensity he felt between his legs whoever was sucking his cock definitely knew what the were doing it was all he had not to cum right away but he knew that would disappoint his mistress.
he felt his mistress rubbing something maybe lotion into his welts his nipples anywhere that would prove sensitive before long he knew why the heat from the icy hot made him groan the happenings of his cock were momentarily forgotten as he felt the stinging burn of the welts intensify with every passing second. He tried listening for his mistress and giggle of approval or even a hmm of disappointment but the ear plugs blocked out everything he was in his own little world of pleasure and pain not sure if he was doing good or bad entirely isolated from the world as he usually knew it and he could only focus on what was happening then and there.
Whoever was sucking his cock had added a ice cube or two to their mouth which only intensified the sensation before he knew it the swirling of cool ice and warm tongue had him cumming uncontrollably and just hoping he had pleased his mistress as he could hold on no longer. After cumming he laid there weak only able to focus on the icy hot sighing as he felt a wash cloth wiping away the icy hot his hands and feet becoming free the feeling of the ear plugs being removed his world filling with sound once again light being brought in again as the blindfold was removed.
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Wednesday, April 10, 2013
keeping your cool
Okay as Dommes we are superior but why act like a sniveling bitch about it? if you act pissed off at subs all the time their less likely to want to serve you why serve a angry person? i've noticed the more one complains about time wasters the more they seem to attract and why not they know that if your complaining about it that it might be easy to waste your time. surely i know how y'all feel sometimes you just have one of those days where everyone and anyone pisses you off and you wanna walk around with a crossbow taking everyone out like it was the zombie apocalypse but on days like that more often than not i try to avoid those triggers even if it means avoiding online that day because you shoot yourself in the foot sometimes when you go off.
You either do it by getting the attention of time wasters or trolls or you scare off shyer genuine slaves and subs. I'm by no means telling anyone what to do but sometimes it's best to write the letter and not send it than to write the letter send it and wish you hadn't later on. There are some of you like myself who do actually have anger issues (no i'm not violent i just have a temper the size of texas that i am working on) but you don't want to reveal a flaw or a weakness well goddess or not your still human and you still have them and sometimes it's good to step away than to make yourself look like less than ladylike.
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You either do it by getting the attention of time wasters or trolls or you scare off shyer genuine slaves and subs. I'm by no means telling anyone what to do but sometimes it's best to write the letter and not send it than to write the letter send it and wish you hadn't later on. There are some of you like myself who do actually have anger issues (no i'm not violent i just have a temper the size of texas that i am working on) but you don't want to reveal a flaw or a weakness well goddess or not your still human and you still have them and sometimes it's good to step away than to make yourself look like less than ladylike.
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Tuesday, April 9, 2013
nice PRICK
Okay this time i wanted to talk about safety for multiple reasons firstly being i've had a lot of newbie dommes asking about what they should or shouldn't allow in a RT session, as i've said previously it does have a lot to do with what your comfortable with but it also has to do with safety. Their are certain terms for safety in bdsm such as SSC RACK and PRICK the following descriptions of these were taken from the bdsm wiki page "SSC stands for Safe, Sane, Consensual. It is far and away the most
recognizable and popular model of consent in BDSM circles, though not
without criticism." "RACK stands for Risk-Aware Consensual Kink. It is the second most
popular consent model. It was created to overcome perceived shortcomings
of SSC." "PRICK stands for Personal Responsibility Informed Consensual Kink. It is
an alternative to RACK that emphasizes personal responsibility for
choices and consequences.."
While RACK and SSC are the more popular choices i want to discuss them on a different level and why PRICK is my personal choice. SSC is all about doing everything safe and while sanity and consent are definitely important factors i find SSC a little on the boring side. and for RACK think about it it
s risk aware consensual kink so basically it's going into whatever your doing with open eyes but without too much thought sometimes with PRICK you have the personal responsibility as a Dominant to think about consequences and anything that can go bad thats why PRICK is my chosen method.
Think about this for a moment if your doing CBT in a RT session with a sub and something goes wrong you could affect his life by making him sterile making him lose his genitalia etc and not only would you have to live with that guilt but it also opens you up for legal and criminal charges. there's always going to be a idiot out there who wants to go to extremes being stabbed in the testicles being hung from them etc you as a Dominant have the responsibility to say no this is too dangerous for the both of us and belongs in a fantasy (you could pretend and roleplay those things without acting them out so that they get played out without the danger) because theres no contract that avoids a illegal act.
Blackmail is another to be very well thought out, blackmail is illegal if the sub changes his mind contract or no contract he can call the cops on you if you persist. i personally do blackmail with very few subs usually after getting to know them getting a feel if their just into it for the fantasy or really into it there is a big difference between the two and you can usually tell after a bit. Especially with more extreme kinks it's best to get to know someone before attempting things as you could get your butt in some hot water if your not careful.
Besides the legal ramifications are the moral ones if a man loses his genitals from extreme CBT would you be able to live with yourself? if a man loses his wife (someone who didn't deserve or consent to be involved in your kink) or family or friends etc because of blackmail or something along those lines would you be okay with that? if you were playing breath play and the sub passed out and got brain damaged would you be able to deal with that? these are things to think about when engaging in more risky play as a Dominant your a care taker of your subs they can be treated like crap and abused but in the end it is YOUR responsibility to say NO to the subs sometimes because your the one with the final say in the end that power is yours but theres also a responsibility in being a Dominant that people don't often consider. If it's something that puts my sub in physical or emotional danger or risk i always think of the possible consequences to both of us and that is important for any successful Domme i think. And to those who engage in riskier behaviors they should think beforehand about all the possibilities both sub and domme alike. playing risky can be fun but it can also be risky and even deadly.
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While RACK and SSC are the more popular choices i want to discuss them on a different level and why PRICK is my personal choice. SSC is all about doing everything safe and while sanity and consent are definitely important factors i find SSC a little on the boring side. and for RACK think about it it
s risk aware consensual kink so basically it's going into whatever your doing with open eyes but without too much thought sometimes with PRICK you have the personal responsibility as a Dominant to think about consequences and anything that can go bad thats why PRICK is my chosen method.
Think about this for a moment if your doing CBT in a RT session with a sub and something goes wrong you could affect his life by making him sterile making him lose his genitalia etc and not only would you have to live with that guilt but it also opens you up for legal and criminal charges. there's always going to be a idiot out there who wants to go to extremes being stabbed in the testicles being hung from them etc you as a Dominant have the responsibility to say no this is too dangerous for the both of us and belongs in a fantasy (you could pretend and roleplay those things without acting them out so that they get played out without the danger) because theres no contract that avoids a illegal act.
Blackmail is another to be very well thought out, blackmail is illegal if the sub changes his mind contract or no contract he can call the cops on you if you persist. i personally do blackmail with very few subs usually after getting to know them getting a feel if their just into it for the fantasy or really into it there is a big difference between the two and you can usually tell after a bit. Especially with more extreme kinks it's best to get to know someone before attempting things as you could get your butt in some hot water if your not careful.
Besides the legal ramifications are the moral ones if a man loses his genitals from extreme CBT would you be able to live with yourself? if a man loses his wife (someone who didn't deserve or consent to be involved in your kink) or family or friends etc because of blackmail or something along those lines would you be okay with that? if you were playing breath play and the sub passed out and got brain damaged would you be able to deal with that? these are things to think about when engaging in more risky play as a Dominant your a care taker of your subs they can be treated like crap and abused but in the end it is YOUR responsibility to say NO to the subs sometimes because your the one with the final say in the end that power is yours but theres also a responsibility in being a Dominant that people don't often consider. If it's something that puts my sub in physical or emotional danger or risk i always think of the possible consequences to both of us and that is important for any successful Domme i think. And to those who engage in riskier behaviors they should think beforehand about all the possibilities both sub and domme alike. playing risky can be fun but it can also be risky and even deadly.
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Wednesday, April 3, 2013
my inner roleplayer
What many of you don't know is that i'm also a ageplayer as well as a regular domme and a findomme, the somewhat taboo fetish is something i've been into for a while. Unlike a lot of other ageplayers i can play both roles i enjoy being the mommy domme to my little or my child (no i wont change a shitty diaper it's a hard limit) having them breast feed having their binky or their footsie pj's or coloring me a pretty picture theres a certain special bond that goes with playing the mother role to someone the care giver i've been in the mommy role for age players who identify with ages from 10 months to 13 years and i truly enjoy it.
Reversely i enjoy being the bratty teenage domme bossy daughter to subs occasionally. That's actually where my pseudonym Lolita Lee came from in part is i enjoy being the lolita role demanding my allowance from a submissive father. I realize not everyone has these fetishes and they don't have to it's just my fetishes i don't incorporate them into every dynamic but i do find my two sides to be interesting the ageplayer mother figure expressing my maternal feelings of caring and nurturing and my ageplayer daughter figure fulfilling my needs for comfort and care.
as with in age playing and all my other fetishes their is a undertone of financial domination with that as well which especially in the mommy role can be difficult to pull off but it can be done without shattering the reality you've built up for yourself and your sub. at the heart of it i'm a role player i've done role playing as a zombie apocalypse survivor turning herself into a queen of a male community where they all bend to her needs (me thinks i watch/read too much walking dead) to being a actual princess to a mafia queen i enjoy creating a story with my subs where we have our own world.
This in part probably comes a bit from the fact that ta da i grew up larping and playing D&D and shit so i'm a mega super nerd but also real life can be boring why always sit around being who you are when you can be anyone and everyone you want to be. that doesn't mean i always have my head up in the clouds but sometimes finding your head up in the clouds isn't such a bad thing.
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Reversely i enjoy being the bratty teenage domme bossy daughter to subs occasionally. That's actually where my pseudonym Lolita Lee came from in part is i enjoy being the lolita role demanding my allowance from a submissive father. I realize not everyone has these fetishes and they don't have to it's just my fetishes i don't incorporate them into every dynamic but i do find my two sides to be interesting the ageplayer mother figure expressing my maternal feelings of caring and nurturing and my ageplayer daughter figure fulfilling my needs for comfort and care.
as with in age playing and all my other fetishes their is a undertone of financial domination with that as well which especially in the mommy role can be difficult to pull off but it can be done without shattering the reality you've built up for yourself and your sub. at the heart of it i'm a role player i've done role playing as a zombie apocalypse survivor turning herself into a queen of a male community where they all bend to her needs (me thinks i watch/read too much walking dead) to being a actual princess to a mafia queen i enjoy creating a story with my subs where we have our own world.
This in part probably comes a bit from the fact that ta da i grew up larping and playing D&D and shit so i'm a mega super nerd but also real life can be boring why always sit around being who you are when you can be anyone and everyone you want to be. that doesn't mean i always have my head up in the clouds but sometimes finding your head up in the clouds isn't such a bad thing.
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Pet http://amzn.com/w/16AX8WPPQ05KL
Shoes http://amzn.com/w/TSHJ25M1KPKJ
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