Friday, July 20, 2012

Farm Tails part1

Life on the quaint little 36 acre horse farm was sunny calm and soothing a relaxing life for a domme that while filled with work to maintain was also filled with reward. She was getting a new boy in today a concept that she enjoyed greatly it'd been a bit since she'd had a new toy to break in she hadn't decided yet if he was going to be her outside pony her inside slave or a mixture of both today would be his evaluation. All the boys wanted to be the inside slaves the play was less intense the work was easier and they were in her presence more which is why she was very particular about who got the right to be her inside toys. He arrived a decent stature of a man about six foot which was her height in heels dark hair light eyes relatively muscled enough to be either a inside or outside toy. She leashed him walking him over to the cross ties and tying him their by either side of his neck so he had to stand in place nude in the mid day sun. She slowly examined him riding crop in hand in case he decided to be spirited she'd dealt with spirited before and could easily bring him to his knees if need be. She pinched his nipples twisting them between her thumb and forefinger making him wince a bit all the while making his nipples hard he liked the pain which made her smirk and dig her fingernails into his flesh of his hardened nipples a bit, with a chuckle she pulled her hands away from his tender nipples and placing nipple clamps on them instead much to his dismay.

She examined his soft penis small and vulnerable in the harsh daylight open to absolutely anything she could come up with but she decided to leave his pathetic cock be for the moment and move along to other areas of interest. she turned to his backside giving his ass a swift swat with the riding crop to make him squirm. "sit still or that'll be nothing compared to what will be in store for you" she said with a calm yet firm tone. "Yes goddess" he said with a tone of undiluted adoration. She placed a ring gag in his mouth with attached reigns and unhooked him from the cross ties putting him to his knees then bending him where he was on all fours his drool dropping from his gagged mouth leaving droplets of drool in the sand. She firmly pushed a tailed butt plug into him making him feel humiliated like a animal and full like a bitch.

She mounted her new ponyboy guiding him about with the reigns if he didn't turn promptly enough or if he was too slow for her liking she'd swat him a time or two with her crop occasionally digging her five inch heels into his sides to really put a hitch in his giddyup after a while of her riding him she dismounted leading him over to her round pen which was used for the training of horses she tied the reigns behind his head like she would a horse so he knew and felt them there but they wouldn't get in the way of his lunging. She got her lunge whip out of her tack room and he was noticeably shaken by the size of the whip she could see the terror in his eyes much like an unbroke stallion. She walked over running her red fingernails across his cheek talking to him in a soothing voice "i wont hurt you at least not anything too permanent you know this comply and you'll be rewarded disobey and you sleep with the horses tonight" she said cracking the whip on his ass leaving a red welt immediately setting him into motion she'd occasionally call out trot walk canter or run as she cracked the whip occasionally switching his direction like a horse.

By the time she'd put away the lunge whip he was drenched in sweat and crying "No tears" she said without much pity as she removed his gag he stretched his mouth feeling sore there from having the ring gag in for so long it was still no comparison to his whipped and welted ass and back he would later come to call those his love marks as she was always particularly more 'playful' to the subs she liked best. She brought him inside and had subs all about her house doing chores spreader bars between legs so they could only crawl or walk on all fours like animals reddened ass cheeks all around some were gagged others mouths were free to their own devices. He was amazed as the other faces looked up at him with curiosity some with lust others with disdain at the thought of sharing their Mistress with yet another.

She had one of her ungagged male slaves bathe him while she sat there quietly waiting. "you were good for the most part today" she said motioning to the sub who had bathed him to get on his knees and bring his cock into his mouth, the sub was surprised to find himself getting hard at another mans sucking of his cock he didn't know if it was because he was so sexually frustrated or that it simply gave her pleasure he had never considered himself bisexual before but here he was with a man sucking his cock having a hard time keeping himself from cumming then and there as she watched "Mistress please" he begged knowing that she knew what it was he wanted and knowing she wouldn't be so simple about things. "Be more precise in your question pet" she replied more than a little amused "Goddess please let me cum into his mouth" he begged feeling the flush of humiliation not sure if he was going to cry again oh but it felt so good. "Very well you may" she said and as soon as she gave the permission he erupted into the other slaves mouth imagining touching her imaging that his face was buried between her thighs.

After he cleaned himself up she stuck him into a large wire dog kennel for the night giving him food and water in a dog bowl. "rest up tomorrow you'll really be proving yourself" she said walking away leaving him for another day to think about what his future held, what did he get himself into? he was filled with fear excitement and a almost content feeling of being a will less slave to his Goddess.

(to be continued)

Ownership

I'll preface this by saying this is most likely going to piss some people off but as i've been blogging for a while now and have written some posts that have already pissed some people off might as well. To me ownership is not a right of a sub it's something that is earned just because a sub gives tribute doesn't mean he automatically should be owned think of it this way your owned slaves represent you as a domme if they poorly represent you then it makes you look bad. If you barely know someone and automatically slap that metaphorical collar on them it can cause a ton of problems what if this sub is a slut and sluts around behind your back might make others think negatively about you. I guess i'm just coming from the old BDSM mind set of earning ones collar is a important step in the D/s relationship. I get it sometimes when we get big tributes we wanna lock that sucker down quick but the way i see it is they can be under consideration and prove themselves the same way that they can while owned without the prestige of the owned title.

If a sub is loyal he'll be loyal under consideration as much and by being owned because he's trying to prove worthiness of himself to you by showing he can be trained for respect honesty loyalty and obedience. When i find out another sub is under another dommes ownership or consideration and sluts by buying off my wishlist etc and i know who the domme is the first thing i do is tell them because i'd want the same if my sub was slutting around as well (because if i catch my subs slutting typically they get 86'd instantly do not pass go do not collect 100$ they are gone) on the other hand loyal subs (which i'm friends with quite a few loyal owned by other ladies subs you know who you are) will be loyal no matter what because they know that their domme is their domme and pleasing her becomes their world.

This to me is a big difference between the sluts and the loyal subs the loyal subs do things to please their domme the slut do things to please themselves seems the sluts want instant gratification whilst the loyal subs are trying to give their lady as much pleasure as they can. granted thats not to say i wont play with a unowned slut they can be amusing but i've learned over time what the sluts are and what the loyal subs are. I used to be the ownership right away girl but now i keep them under consideration for at least a month it helps them learn their place it keeps them from making me look crappy and it gives me a chance to learn the nuaces of their personalities as well as learn their whether their loyalties lie with themselves or me once again my opinion but just felt like writing about it.

Friday, July 6, 2012

fantasy from my sub

So i tend to have my subs write out fantasies because one i think spending more time writing out their fantasies focused on me focuses their submission better secondly because i enjoy it and it amuses me. this is this newly owned subs first fantasy he gave me and i liked it so much i figured i'd share hopefully you guys enjoy it as much as i did.

The hotel lobby was intimidating, it felt to him that everyone knew him, knew his situation, his desperate needs and what was about to happen. He walked to the reception desk, gleaming in faux marble, with the young girl receptionist looking up as he approached, smiling, perfect white teeth and eyes exquisitely picked out by dark lines and maskara. Her slim figure outlined in a trim grey uniform. The wheels of the flight bag rumbled quietly behind him as he crossed the lobby.

He was nervous, she was knowing as he checked in, asking for a second room key to be kept behind reception. His credit card was swiped with quite cruel slowness and her voice seemed to echo around the vestibule.  He shook his head at the offer of a concierge with his flight bag, smiled his thanks fleetingly, eyes darting around.  She must know, mustn't she?  The thought excited him, stirring in his trousers. He was afraid to check if the thong was visible above his trousers, perhaps the tight trousers he was wearing outlined the thin lacy straps clinging to his hips, the tight strip of material parting his cheeks and the triangle of lace even now rubbing tantalisingly on his engorged flesh as he walked, a little stiffly given his state, to the lift.

The cold of the aircon in the ceiling by the lift reminded him that he was perspiring despite the cool of the lobby.

It took three attempts to get the right floor. The floor with the views to the mountains. The luxury She deserved and expected.  He could see his own pale and nervous state reflected in the smoked mirrors in the lifts. He hardly even noted the adverts for the gym, the restaurant, the bar. Eventually the lift dinged and he stepped out on to quiet luxury, soft and deep carpet, occasional lounge chairs and artwork dotting the corridor to the room. the decor was muted, tasteful. His flight bag moved behind him silently.

Inside there were floor to ceiling windows capturing the view, a well proportioned lounge with a suite facing the gorgeous vista, a kitchenette, a roomy bedroom with the king size bed, with the wooden frame and corner posts. He caressed the smooth phallicism of one of the posts, imagining which of his limbs would be secured just there all too soon.  The room was comfortably warm and he recognised his sudden shiver as a combination of anticipation, nervousness and a touch of terror.

Laying the bag on the stand provided, the zip startlingly loud in the quiet of the place he started removing the contents, laying them out in the bedroom and tying them to the four corners of the bed, the leather and fabric loops and closures lay on the pale bedding in stark contrast to the luxurious comfort. The laptop was logged on,  the crop and wallet placed close by.  Undressing, he lay out his fresh lingerie and put away his street clothes, hesitating before gently sliding the lace panties down his smooth stocking clad thighs, slowly and carefully, enjoying the feel of the material sliding down the hold up stockings and the way his inhibitions and anxiety calmed as he did so.  Naked now, he re-fastened the zip, took a look around to check that all was in place and headed for the shower.

A few minutes later he emerged, freshly scrubbed and a little pink, and sensuously slid the laid out black stockings up his legs, smoothing them high until the lace tops just tickled his testicles.  The black lace panties and top were next and he finished tying the top in a careful bow before moving to the fridge to fix Her drink.  He sat the chilled glass down, water droplets already obscuring the pale contents and assumed the position, kneeling, legs apart, head bowed and hands resting on thighs to await Her.

It wasn't long.

The door clicked open and even with his downcast eyes he had a view of Her long leather coat, black heeled boots cladding shapely, strong calves and a brief sweep of Her leg vanishing into the shadowed leather.  The door closed with a solidity and finality that spoke volumes to his addled mind at this point. He was overwhelmed with Her actual presence, the first sense of Her scent, Her sounds, the soft swish of the leather, the soft, firm sound of the boots on the floor as She slowly and elegantly stepped in to the room, Her imposing physical presence. Here. With him. Now.

He was overwhelmed, his mind trying to take it all in, what it meant, the memory, the experience, all piled on top of him. He stifled a small emotional sob as the tsunami rolled over him. And She had been here less than a minute.  As if sensing his turmoil, She walked around him, slowly, drawing the moment out, stringing his emotions along.  Her boots the only part of Her visible now. He was noticing the thin, almost stiletto heels, the delicate leather work on them the colour and odour of the leather. Not new certainly, but worn.

Walking behind him, out of his sight, he heard the movement as She explored the room, the deep chuckle, probably at his placement of the bonds on the bed.  The sounds of Her coat draping one of the loungers.  She returned to him, and he jerked at the caress of the riding crop on his naked back.

"Good evening, slave" She purred. her voice was like thick honey, sensual, sexy as hell. His cock jerked at the sound and it's effect. It could melt him.

As did his body at the caress of the riding crop over his back, with a little slap to his flank.

"Good evening Mistress" He was hoarse with nervous tension, anticipation, his throat dry. He swallowed.

"All as I instructed. Good boy!". He did melt at the compliment.

"Thank you Mistress" A little firmer, a little more confident.

"Now..." as She sat on the bed facing him, gently tapping Her left boot with the crop. "I think they are a little dusty, don't you?"

He crawled toward the indicated leather boot, noting that Her legs were bare to the tops of Her thighs, Her corset, in black and red, snug, not tight, to Her body.  Her legs were muscular, gorgeous, sexy. He inwardly groaned, imagining them, impossibly, around his body or head, squeezing, before bending hi head to the task at hand, starting at the very tip, his tongue lavishing his praise on the smooth leather at the tip, large swipes of his tongue capturing the flavour of the leather, the flint of the countryside and slight tones of salt. He inhaled deeply and the aroma crashed through his brain, erasing thought. It was indescribable. It was all of the flavours. Plus more. An earthiness perhaps? And a whole layer of Her.

Now he did groan out loud and he heard Her chuckle at his involuntary response and his body relaxing in to it's kneeling position as he pressed his tongue into the task.

"Gooood boy".  He loved those words and his world became totally focussed on the leather as She turned Her foot this way and that, ensuring he had access to every part of Her footware for his tongue. He knew he was entering sub space as he lavished attention on his task, his eyes closed in concentration and attention as She moved Her each foot in turn, enabling him to lavish attention on every square millimeter of the leather, both smooth and embossed, and moving towards Her bare knee until guided back down by the crop.  She finished each boot with the heel placed in to his mouth so he could clean each with a back and forth movement of his head, as though he was performing fellatio on Her heel.  He was lost in the experience and was almost surprised when She placed both  feet to the ground, looking around dazedly.

"You may look up"

The tableaux was delicious he was kneeling, in lingerie and clearly excited by his service yet captured by the black frilly lace. Vulnerable and captivated. She, powerful, sitting above him, legs crossed, boot gently rocking back and forth. He did not know where to look. Everywhere was a visual feast for him in his befuddled state. Her delightful curves caressed by the corset, the smooth skin of Her calves and thighs, the hypnotic motion of the oh so recently worshipped boot, Her bounteous breasts, almost offered for view by the corset, the cleavage alone capable of reducing men to abject obedience. And Her face. So youthful and lovely, her smooth skin offset by the rounded studs and Her hair by the fine wire earrings. her eyes captured him and he unashamedly stared, lost, adoring and hardly breathing as the moment went on and on.......

A small smile of satisfaction played over Her mouth.

"I think thats enough! Impertinent slave! On all fours!"  Her sharp words snapped him out of his adoration as She stood. He was looking down at Her boots now, the scent of Her, the leather and Her perfume again mingling in his brain as She stepped forward to secure his head between Her legs.   She squeezed slightly to make sure he was firmly held.

"Butt up" She commanded and he shifted, uncomfortably, so that his ass was now high, above his head, nicely held in Her legs. 

"I imagine you've dreamed of being between my legs, boy! Now you have your wish! Hahah" 

"Now how many do you deserve, slave?. Five? Ten? More?" She flicked the crop at his ass, a little sting, almost absently.   "Five i think. Count them slave." 

"Yes, Mistress" he said, somewhat muffled and struggling to offer his pert derrier for Her attention.

Smack! "One" he yelped.

"And what do you say?"

"Thank you Mistress. May i please have another?" "Goood boy!" Smack! She took Her time, carefully striking unreddened flesh every time, avoiding his panties stretched over his flesh so invitingly, so he would get the most benefit from his lesson - and She the most enjoyment from his pain and squirming.  He even begged for another after number five. She laughed, and gave him a friendly extra swipe across his flank.  Releasing his head She strode to slake He thirst after the exercise with the nicely chilled glass he had poured - exactly as instructed, She was pleased to notice. Perhaps this one was a keeper? She smiled to Herself and took another sip, enjoying the views both within the room and outside the window. The mountains were quite stunning today.

He was panting. Still on all fours. Not that the pain was extreme but the emotional effects and the sudden realisation that he did want more, that he was begging her for real churned through him, overturning many pre-conceptions. He had enjoyed the pain. And was still enjoying the fading sting but gathering heat of Her ministrations.

"Did you enjoy that my pet? I did. I like being wicked. But you know that. Now let's get you bound nice and tight to the bed. You are warm enough?"

"Yes Mistress". He crawled to the bed and on to it, following Her directions, given with the crop - little slaps and taps with his head at the base and his limbs spreadeagled and secured to the bonds at each corner

She stood, staring down at him - and he gazed adoringly back, prepared to accept anything so long as it was at the hands of his beautiful, powerful and ravishing Mistress.

"Now, what shall I do with you? " She mused.


to be continued........

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Saturday, June 30, 2012

Through the looking glass

When you look in the mirror what do you see? are you happy with who you are? do you consider yourself a good person? more importantly can you even look in the mirror? these are questions many people ask themselves on a daily basis for good reason. But do we always answer them honestly? i think sometimes we deceive ourselves by trying to convince ourselves that we're all do gooders, we're not not really even if just for a moment a brief fleeting second we think i want to see that person suffer or i want to see how far i can push this person before they break or even i'm going to lie to this person because it arouses me i've seen and heard all these things from the bdsm community (vanilla as well but if this was a vanilla blog that'd be a whole different story) and it's sad that we can all do that to fellow human beings. I chose the title through the looking glass for several reasons first it was the first real book i read cover to cover as a child and i have literally read my copy to tatters over the years (i've had this same book since i was 5 when my father used to read it to me) what resonated with me was the mirroring images the opposites, like if you look into the mirror is the person looking back the opposite version of yourself asking the opposite questions that you've asked yourself? i know thats a odd metaphor but in a way it describes the duality that people have in themselves.

Sometimes i wish i had a lie detector that i could attach to every person i talk to, as a domme we're often expected to be cold feelingless unable to get hurt basically, but when your training a new sub it's hard not to put emotions in it at least for me so when they disappoint they truly disappoint not because they fell below financial standards or anything but because they hurt you. (no this isn't about anything in particular just a purging of built up feelings) some take punishments and loyalty and are just wonderful and even when they fall short they are endearing because they TRY TO PLEASE and even if they fall short they still tried but the ones who keeps secrets lie cheat or are disloyal thats what hurts i've had subs make me feel like a dirty little secret on domination sites if you can't be proud of being under the consideration or ownership of you domme how can you pride yourself in your service? i pose this question to those of you who hide.

Sometimes i'm superficial sometimes it's amusing to see how far i can push a limit sometimes i'm angry and i've even had occasion to be bitter and cynical can you look through your mirror onto the other side and openly admit your faults? few people can and even fewer can to people they know they wouldn't want to disgrace their reputation or rid themselves of their mysterious allure or whatever reasons they may have i could turn this blog into a black list of all the negative people i've come across but why would i? life has a way of making things come out the way they should in the end. And in the end i might fall but i pick myself up i might cry but my tears dry in the end what doesn't kill me truly makes me stronger and as my father and papa would say it builds character.


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Thursday, June 28, 2012

tribute contest

So i am doing my first ever tribute contest yay me haha. the winner will get multiple rewards what are they you ask? well their a surprise there will also be second and third place rewards for whoever places second and third as well. the game is simple whoever in a two week period today june 28th till july 13th sends the most amounts of tribute (can be several smaller ones larger ones etc whoever makes up the largest amount over that time period wins and second and third place as well get rewards if the amount ties theres equal rewards for the winners)the rewards are things that are very special and usually only some subs ever get the chance to have (some of the rewards are things my own subs haven't gotten yet)

so heres how this works you message me (paypal or amazon GC only) saying your entering the contest and saying which way you'd like to tribute then after that you continue your tributes if you do more than one via either messaging me each time or leaving a note (in your amazon GC message section of note section of paypal) i keep a tally and then you get your rewards at the end of the two week period.

(i'm working on seperating my wishlists into seperate ones so bare with me)

Friday, June 8, 2012

insert wittiness here

My life has honestly been a lot like hell lately i just havent been up to talking about it much because in all honesty i'm not one of those touchy feely talk about my feelings too much types basically my parents got a judgement against them that they have 30 days to pay or they're screwed so my mom has decided to sell my puppy who as well as being my baby girl i've raised from the time she was 6 weeks old is also a huge investment i've put hundreds upon hundreds of dollars into as well as possibly selling some of my favorite horses and treating me like crap all the while. so it's been a hard time as of late for me coupled with the fact that last night i was huddled in a crawl space for 3 hours like a animal because we had a reverse 911 call due to tornados and i'm emotionally and physically exhausted anyone wanna buy a baby horse? haha.

i've also had to dismiss a lot of subs as of late for cheating lying etc the sort of things that as a dominant that puts all of her time and effort into bettering her subs it's painful and slightly heart breaking yes my subs tribute and some see that as prostitution well if your one of those please kindly step away from my blog. because i put time effort and emotional connections into my D/s relationships with my subs just because i don't have sex with them doesn't mean their isn't a bond between the two of us thats unique to us sure i have a sadistic streak but i can also be very affectionate and i just don't see why people stray whether in kink or not at first i'm mad but then i'm mostly hurt i guess thats probably because i don't believe in lying people always find that weird but truth be told it's why i don't hide my kink from my vanilla friends and family (the older family members of course not gonna talk kink with kids lol) i just don't get it when it's just so much easier to be honest why burn a bridge when you can simply say something isn't working for you anymore? furthermore why serve if you have no intention of actually following through?

I guess it all comes down to trying to be a good person being kinky doesn't make me evil it doesn't make me a slut or a prostitute it makes me a person with unique tastes just as my piercings and tattoos do and a lot of people think that being kinky makes you some kind of slut or bad person i think theres every type of slut and bad person out there from any group or race belonging to one or another doesn't mean anything but it does mean something when your judged for belonging to a particular group. I'm a 20 year old christian tattooed and pierced Bi-curious Dominant model who is secure in who i am i have curves but i'm by no means fat i have short hair but i'm by no means a guy i love myself and if you don't love me right back thats on you not me i forgive you anyway because i'm a rockstar like that.

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Wednesday, May 23, 2012

short ramble post

Well last  sunday my meeting up with my potential sub fell through he got a stomach bug and couldn't meet up hopefully we'll be able to meet up in the near future as i'd really like a decent RT sub. There have been a lot of time wasters this week and family drama so i'm not exactly always rainbows and sunshine but you know thats life it has it's ups and downs. I took back at least in consideration stage a sub who decided to take off without discussion we'll see how it goes. I've come to the conclusion that there are very few finsubs on CM and more expect you to be a webcam girl sorry but i'm not a webcam girl don't like it fine there are plenty of cam girls.

I took the plunge on sunday cutting off all of my hair, mostly because of how badly my sister damaged it but it was nice having a change too kinda reminds me of being the 16 year old goth chick again i've been doing a lot of things that have reminded me of my youth lately skating having short hair stuff like that it's funny how so many things seem like they were a life time ago not even though they were just a few years ago i can only imagine what older people feel when going over old memories.

Not sure why but i've been all about second chances lately i wouldn't mind taking on new subs or anything like that lately but also rekindling older relationships with subs sometimes the familiar is awesome. As always heres my Wishlist i always like nice surprises so some surprises would be great and would make me smile.