So you got your time wasted? well it happens to us all for a variety of reasons, whether it's because your new and don't know how much time to spend before asking for a tribute and let subs take advantage, or maybe your bored and feel like spending a little extra time on a sub, hell even if they give you a feeling like they just need to warm up to you etc. Firstly don't feel bad if you get taken for a ride it has happened to the best of us and that's a part of life sometimes instead of learning by suggestion you have to learn by learning yourself and even after learning this lesson you still might repeat it. Now that we've gotten that out of the way we'll start with how your time is only wasted if you let it.
Some dommes after this lesson have certain rules, like myself for instance my rules are until tribute is given only vanilla conversations or questions regarding their experience level take place that way they don't get anything fun for free. Other dommes i've heard only do vanilla conversations or a certain number of conversations before tribute is given so theirs ways to try and set parameters to try to avoid time wasters more though sometimes you break these parameters if you so choose or don't have them at it takes all kinds ladies. If a sub makes you feel like their wasting your time move along the fetish should be fun and if they make you feel negative i wouldn't stick around.
Subs can only waste the amount of time you give them to waste i prefer trying to get a small tribute early on in a conversation if i click with the sub even if it's 5$ it shows their serious about wanting to put something out there time wasting subs typically pinch pennies so hard they have abe Lincoln permanantly engraved on their finger so it's a semi decent way to weed them out. But here's the kicker if you decide to spend 2 hours talking constantly with a sub then tribute comes up and like some form a cheap magic poof he disappears then you wasted your time because you let him string you along if you started to feel like it was going to be a endless conversation either leave or bring up tribute sooner.
As always your the domme your in control of the conversation so don't let subs take you for a ride only to walk off and get their jollies. Will it still happen from time to time yes, but if you always keep in the back of your mind he isn't wasting my time unless i let him then your more likely to know when to set your cards down and tell it like it is and walk away hopefully this helps other ladies have less of their time wasted and a better view point.
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Wednesday, March 13, 2013
Tuesday, March 12, 2013
questioning the questions
Just because i want to get to know subs doesn't mean i'm less of a domme it doesn't mean that getting to know someone makes me less in control from a logical standpoint if a domme knows more about a sub ho they got into bdsm what their experiences are what their interests and limits are it's easier to get into their heads and get into a mental state where you can give them a really good mind fuck. I think a lot of bdsm is cerebral and just going through the motions for the sake of it gets old quickly. i like finding nuances in a subs personality and using them against them some subs have told me that i was good at mind fucking them without them even realizing it until it's too late to turn back and thats because i take the time to get to know a bit about any potential sub.
Some subs have said that a sub shouldn't tell a domme their ideals because then it's automatically topping from the bottom or she's not a real domme. that might be the case if the domme did exactly what the subs ideal was but that's not why i ask. i ask because it tells me how you work as a sub it tells me how you view bdsm and findom it tells me how your mind thinks and considers bdsm and findom it. Also why not learn as much as possible about a sub and their interests to know if their compatible or not for instance if my favorite fetish is a hard limit for them there probably better off with a mistress who's also not interested in that fetish.
So if subs want to judge me based on my interest in getting to know them on a psychological level then thats their loss because anyone can walk up call a sub some names and say give me money (not accusing anyone of that) but my style is to try and find what makes a sub tick partially because i sat in on a lot of my moms psychology classes for college so it gave me a fascination with the workings of the human mind and partially because sometimes it's good to know for instance a sub hates writing lines so that if they piss me off i can go to some of the things that annoy the subs for whatever reason they need punishing.
I also tend to find it interesting that will say things to the affect of oh if you ask about what i want your not a true domme or your not as dominant as other dommes who don't ask those things because that to me lacks submission entirely. they think it's not submissive of them to answer those questions but they still find it submissive to tell you your not dominant for asking those questions. I find it rather disrespectful yet funny at the same time.
Honestly if i cant find a intellectual connection with a sub then i'm less likely to have much interest with him maybe it's because i find intelligence sexy or maybe it's because stupid people annoy me either way it's my preference as a domme to know more about a sub and i'm sure all the subs i own have owned or have rt sessioned with would agree that i'm dominant whether i ask those questions or not
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Some subs have said that a sub shouldn't tell a domme their ideals because then it's automatically topping from the bottom or she's not a real domme. that might be the case if the domme did exactly what the subs ideal was but that's not why i ask. i ask because it tells me how you work as a sub it tells me how you view bdsm and findom it tells me how your mind thinks and considers bdsm and findom it. Also why not learn as much as possible about a sub and their interests to know if their compatible or not for instance if my favorite fetish is a hard limit for them there probably better off with a mistress who's also not interested in that fetish.
So if subs want to judge me based on my interest in getting to know them on a psychological level then thats their loss because anyone can walk up call a sub some names and say give me money (not accusing anyone of that) but my style is to try and find what makes a sub tick partially because i sat in on a lot of my moms psychology classes for college so it gave me a fascination with the workings of the human mind and partially because sometimes it's good to know for instance a sub hates writing lines so that if they piss me off i can go to some of the things that annoy the subs for whatever reason they need punishing.
I also tend to find it interesting that will say things to the affect of oh if you ask about what i want your not a true domme or your not as dominant as other dommes who don't ask those things because that to me lacks submission entirely. they think it's not submissive of them to answer those questions but they still find it submissive to tell you your not dominant for asking those questions. I find it rather disrespectful yet funny at the same time.
Honestly if i cant find a intellectual connection with a sub then i'm less likely to have much interest with him maybe it's because i find intelligence sexy or maybe it's because stupid people annoy me either way it's my preference as a domme to know more about a sub and i'm sure all the subs i own have owned or have rt sessioned with would agree that i'm dominant whether i ask those questions or not
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Monday, March 11, 2013
why leaving UC/owned subs alone is important
Firstly i could say the obvious thing that is do unto others as you
would have them do to you but i think a little more depth is important
in this situation. So i'll break this down into sections, firstly like
any relationship it's important not to try and put a wedge between a
couple in this instance it's the D/s couple that you would be putting a
wedge between. Ethically would you go around trying to split up a
couple who are engaged or something just because you had a interest in
the man? if you answered yes i would say re-evaluate your thought
process if you answered no then why would you want to try and split up a
dynamic between two people.
But subs stray. While thats true if they had no where to stray to then they'd be less likely to go from domme to domme to domme (i'm not saying community whores but subs who say they want ownership) i have in my profile that if a sub wants to stray from his mistress to not bother with me because i wont aid in cheating if a sub can't be honest with themselves and others then their not worth my time and shouldn't be worth your time either, because if they'd do it to another domme they'll do it to you and keep going from domme to domme so while sometimes they are responsible for their disloyalty why would you wish to aid them in disrespecting the female gender in general if you believe in female supremacy then helping a sub betray a fellow woman defeats that purpose and even if you don't believe in female supremacy why would you help a sub do something he'd turn around and do to you.
If your a domme and you don't take the time to check to see if a sub is owned or if you know a sub is owned and contact them anyway you'll get a very bad reputation very quickly with other ladies as being rude unethical and distasteful and i've had subs who've been contacted (who wished to remain unnamed) say that they felt that dommes who contacted them when they were owned trying to seduce them away from their owners were sleazy desperate and didn't deserve to be called dominant. Now who wants to run around with a reputation like that i know i don't i'd much rather lose a few bucks by keeping away from owned UC or straying boys then to be seen as anything less than a goddess.
Another point is if you owned a sub how would you feel if you found out a domme was doing it to your owned sub i'm sure you wouldn't appreciate them trying to steal away your pet whether it worked or not it's still a affront to the time and effort you put into owning a sub, lets be realistic ownership while rewarding is a more time consuming and sometimes more tedious thing than just playing with a sub so why would you want to put in all that effort just to get a metaphorical finger from another domme trying to piss on your head and tell you it's raining. If you want you be treated like a respected lady then act like one i don't want other ladies messing with my subs so i don't mess with theirs if we all lived by that then there wouldn't be any issues with sub stealing. Yes dommes are competitive yes theres probably more findommes than finsubs but that doesn't mean you have to act without class. You make less enemies if you follow basic domme etiquette.
Another thing to consider is repercussions other than a bad reputation such as other dommes being less likely to give you heads up on time wasters or give advice or help you etc if you try to steal subs your often times pushed out of the domme sisterhood and treated like a pariah.
This part is for the subs. Not everyone wants to be owned that's logical and understandable if you want to be a community slut be upfront and honest about it your less likely to make enemies that way, why not be honest and leave in your wake a bunch of happy dommes who played with you a bit and moved on than a bunch of pissed off ex owners who you wont be able to play with again and revisit. if your not sure if you want to be owned or not say so you cause ladies less trouble that way. To the boys who are loyal to their ladies and give them a heads up when a domme tries to sneak them away good on you, you should be proud of your loyalty and knowing that ownership means something.
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But subs stray. While thats true if they had no where to stray to then they'd be less likely to go from domme to domme to domme (i'm not saying community whores but subs who say they want ownership) i have in my profile that if a sub wants to stray from his mistress to not bother with me because i wont aid in cheating if a sub can't be honest with themselves and others then their not worth my time and shouldn't be worth your time either, because if they'd do it to another domme they'll do it to you and keep going from domme to domme so while sometimes they are responsible for their disloyalty why would you wish to aid them in disrespecting the female gender in general if you believe in female supremacy then helping a sub betray a fellow woman defeats that purpose and even if you don't believe in female supremacy why would you help a sub do something he'd turn around and do to you.
If your a domme and you don't take the time to check to see if a sub is owned or if you know a sub is owned and contact them anyway you'll get a very bad reputation very quickly with other ladies as being rude unethical and distasteful and i've had subs who've been contacted (who wished to remain unnamed) say that they felt that dommes who contacted them when they were owned trying to seduce them away from their owners were sleazy desperate and didn't deserve to be called dominant. Now who wants to run around with a reputation like that i know i don't i'd much rather lose a few bucks by keeping away from owned UC or straying boys then to be seen as anything less than a goddess.
Another point is if you owned a sub how would you feel if you found out a domme was doing it to your owned sub i'm sure you wouldn't appreciate them trying to steal away your pet whether it worked or not it's still a affront to the time and effort you put into owning a sub, lets be realistic ownership while rewarding is a more time consuming and sometimes more tedious thing than just playing with a sub so why would you want to put in all that effort just to get a metaphorical finger from another domme trying to piss on your head and tell you it's raining. If you want you be treated like a respected lady then act like one i don't want other ladies messing with my subs so i don't mess with theirs if we all lived by that then there wouldn't be any issues with sub stealing. Yes dommes are competitive yes theres probably more findommes than finsubs but that doesn't mean you have to act without class. You make less enemies if you follow basic domme etiquette.
Another thing to consider is repercussions other than a bad reputation such as other dommes being less likely to give you heads up on time wasters or give advice or help you etc if you try to steal subs your often times pushed out of the domme sisterhood and treated like a pariah.
This part is for the subs. Not everyone wants to be owned that's logical and understandable if you want to be a community slut be upfront and honest about it your less likely to make enemies that way, why not be honest and leave in your wake a bunch of happy dommes who played with you a bit and moved on than a bunch of pissed off ex owners who you wont be able to play with again and revisit. if your not sure if you want to be owned or not say so you cause ladies less trouble that way. To the boys who are loyal to their ladies and give them a heads up when a domme tries to sneak them away good on you, you should be proud of your loyalty and knowing that ownership means something.
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Wednesday, March 6, 2013
growing up
When people ask me about my childhood i answer that it was complicated which is true, i grew up working hard for everything i got had a shitty older sister (which i've blogged about previously) but when i think about my childhood one memory comes to mind. I was young probably 7 i don't remember exactly but it was when i was way into a bugs life. it was christmas time and my parents couldn't afford it to do anything for us. Now being broke we weren't exactly spoiled kids so we prepared ourselves to wake up christmas morning to nothing but a family breakfast, instead we woke up to one of the best christmases i could remember. Now i'm sure your probably wondering how it happened, so were we apparently my parents had waited until we went to bed for days before and found a radio station that let them work to earn their daughters a christmas. at that point my mother was schooling us during the day and secretly working at night with my dad to bring us a christmas. When we asked they just told us that god brought us a miracle i suppose they didn't want us to feel guilty that they had busted their asses to help us out, our sister in law accidentally let it slip that week and that's how i knew what my parents did for us.
That is what good parents do, now i'm not saying my parents were perfect we have our issues and they made their mistakes (their human beings expecting perfection out of imperfect creatures is like expecting a man to give birth that shit just aint gonna happen) but in the end if the one thing you associate with growing up is the massive sacrifice they did to make you smile then i'd say you have some pretty damned good parents my dad worked all day then worked all night my mom taught us all day then worked all night and i'd say that makes them pretty great.
My family as you know has been going through some stuff with my sister pulling her BS out of her ass again, but even when my mom takes it out on me and even when she's bitchy for no reason (probably cause she's annoyed i'm taking care of her :P) i can still look at her a see the sacrifice both of my parents made for me throughout my life both in material and emotional ways and they probably never know how appreciative i am. probably because i tend to be a drama queen bitch with anger issues but they put up with me and i might bitch about taking care of the farm or other shit but in the end i know i'm lucky, i didn't grow up with parents that beat me or sexually abused me or abandoned me to do things for themselves and for that i'm enternally grateful now back to your uninterrupted non mushy blog reading lol.
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That is what good parents do, now i'm not saying my parents were perfect we have our issues and they made their mistakes (their human beings expecting perfection out of imperfect creatures is like expecting a man to give birth that shit just aint gonna happen) but in the end if the one thing you associate with growing up is the massive sacrifice they did to make you smile then i'd say you have some pretty damned good parents my dad worked all day then worked all night my mom taught us all day then worked all night and i'd say that makes them pretty great.
My family as you know has been going through some stuff with my sister pulling her BS out of her ass again, but even when my mom takes it out on me and even when she's bitchy for no reason (probably cause she's annoyed i'm taking care of her :P) i can still look at her a see the sacrifice both of my parents made for me throughout my life both in material and emotional ways and they probably never know how appreciative i am. probably because i tend to be a drama queen bitch with anger issues but they put up with me and i might bitch about taking care of the farm or other shit but in the end i know i'm lucky, i didn't grow up with parents that beat me or sexually abused me or abandoned me to do things for themselves and for that i'm enternally grateful now back to your uninterrupted non mushy blog reading lol.
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Tuesday, February 26, 2013
No such animal
Human ATM is a term thrown about but i honestly don't believe such a creature exists for several reasons one of which is that human ATM's are people and people have preferences and limitations so their aren't a machine if they see a Domme they don't like then of course they aren't going to tribute that Domme. Additionally if they tributed everyone that walked along then they would run out of money fairly quickly.
I think the subs that identify as a human ATM often times don't think of it in these terms and try to think of it simply, as another humiliating term to be thrown about. If i ever a actual human ATM i'll be pretty surprised because i often wonder if that's a possible thing. I've met a couple subs over time who did tribute upon first contact i doubt that was because they were a human ATM though but because they were trying to get my attention.
I do find that subs who identify as human ATM's tend to be sluts though, which i love a good slut as long as their honest about being one i find it's easier to not have to take the responsibility for a sub and while ownership is great fun it can be a lot of work so sluts do have their purpose as well. They also aid newer Dommes in getting their confidence sometimes at least from what i've seen. So that's why i don't believe that human ATM's are real.
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I think the subs that identify as a human ATM often times don't think of it in these terms and try to think of it simply, as another humiliating term to be thrown about. If i ever a actual human ATM i'll be pretty surprised because i often wonder if that's a possible thing. I've met a couple subs over time who did tribute upon first contact i doubt that was because they were a human ATM though but because they were trying to get my attention.
I do find that subs who identify as human ATM's tend to be sluts though, which i love a good slut as long as their honest about being one i find it's easier to not have to take the responsibility for a sub and while ownership is great fun it can be a lot of work so sluts do have their purpose as well. They also aid newer Dommes in getting their confidence sometimes at least from what i've seen. So that's why i don't believe that human ATM's are real.
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Too late to turn back
As most people who've read my blogs know or who know me personally know that i've had a hard life that i have had a tough childhood. So i think it'd be cathartic to explain the latest that has unfolded in my life. firstly though, i need to recap some of my history for those who aren't current. my sister is older by 2 1/2 years she was the favored blonde princess i was the tom boy well right after my sister turned 18 on my moms 51st birthday she ran away from home in the middle of the night saying simply "i'm going for a walk" she left with a man she had just met off the internet we didn't see her again for 3 years finding out she had left state. During this period of time she treated my family like crap, fast forward to us rescuing her from that man being abusive she seemed like her again for a while.
Until she tried to get me disowned from my family for being a domme (a fact that my parents already knew so it didn't work) well recently she got into a fight with her fiancee and tried killing herself she was put into a institution and during that period refused contact with her family once she got out she blamed everything wrong in her life on us me in particular so now once again my mother is on the verge of a nervous breakdown and i've been having a emotional time myself. at one point my sister got her fiancees mother to text me and attack me saying it was all my fault that both my sister and my mother had problems claiming i was physically abusive and verbally abusive so i've found my sister is not only making false claims about me behind my back but also having others attack me. The fact that she went around telling others about my rape as a child saying it was traumatic for her when she didn't know for years later she's always been a attention seeker and this just shines the light brighter on that.
I had bought her a gift when she got out of the institution and she blew it off, she texted us repeatedly to let us know she didn't want us in her life until i finally lost it and told her that she could avoid me and hate me all she wanted but her mother gave her life and her fiancee was who she was fighting when she ended up in the institution for saying she couldn't go to college and that she was lower than a dog. So i told her it wasn't right that she push away her mother whom if it wasn't for her she wouldn't have life in the first place again like she did when she was 18. I've decided personally now to cut my sister out of my life after she changed her number after i defended my mother. My father doesn't want to give up and i don't know if my mother CAN give her up but i've decided for my own health that i can no longer have my sister in my life i love her and always will but i cannot protect her anymore mental illness isn't a reason to throw your family in the garbage given everything she was diagnosed with i was and then some.
I'm not a harsh person i can be when i'm angry and i do have my issues i'm more than willing to admit but i'm a good sister and a good daughter. i chose to give up a lot in my life to take care of my mother and my family farm and every time my sister has needed me i took care of her i protected her when we were kids from situations she'd get herself into and i often feel like the caregiver of the family so if i've disappeared lately this is why, this is why i stepped down from responsibilities in the recent past and this is why i've grown quiet recently i know this might not be domination related as much as my typical blogs but i felt it needed to be aired out and said so that i could try to move on.
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Until she tried to get me disowned from my family for being a domme (a fact that my parents already knew so it didn't work) well recently she got into a fight with her fiancee and tried killing herself she was put into a institution and during that period refused contact with her family once she got out she blamed everything wrong in her life on us me in particular so now once again my mother is on the verge of a nervous breakdown and i've been having a emotional time myself. at one point my sister got her fiancees mother to text me and attack me saying it was all my fault that both my sister and my mother had problems claiming i was physically abusive and verbally abusive so i've found my sister is not only making false claims about me behind my back but also having others attack me. The fact that she went around telling others about my rape as a child saying it was traumatic for her when she didn't know for years later she's always been a attention seeker and this just shines the light brighter on that.
I had bought her a gift when she got out of the institution and she blew it off, she texted us repeatedly to let us know she didn't want us in her life until i finally lost it and told her that she could avoid me and hate me all she wanted but her mother gave her life and her fiancee was who she was fighting when she ended up in the institution for saying she couldn't go to college and that she was lower than a dog. So i told her it wasn't right that she push away her mother whom if it wasn't for her she wouldn't have life in the first place again like she did when she was 18. I've decided personally now to cut my sister out of my life after she changed her number after i defended my mother. My father doesn't want to give up and i don't know if my mother CAN give her up but i've decided for my own health that i can no longer have my sister in my life i love her and always will but i cannot protect her anymore mental illness isn't a reason to throw your family in the garbage given everything she was diagnosed with i was and then some.
I'm not a harsh person i can be when i'm angry and i do have my issues i'm more than willing to admit but i'm a good sister and a good daughter. i chose to give up a lot in my life to take care of my mother and my family farm and every time my sister has needed me i took care of her i protected her when we were kids from situations she'd get herself into and i often feel like the caregiver of the family so if i've disappeared lately this is why, this is why i stepped down from responsibilities in the recent past and this is why i've grown quiet recently i know this might not be domination related as much as my typical blogs but i felt it needed to be aired out and said so that i could try to move on.
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Monday, February 25, 2013
A riding lesson with Mistress ColdBloodedDomme
this is a erotica/fantasy story written by my pony bitch collared.
I heard the command from my Mistress Coldblooddedomme and knew not to keep Her waiting. I made my way crawling on all fours to where She stood. Mistress was wearing her black leather boots which came to just below her knees and put an extra 5 or 6 inches on to her height. Her fishnet stockings accentuated Her full powerful thighs. Above Her panties Mistress was wearing a claret coloured corset which showed off her fabulous figure.
In contrast I was naked but for a pair of knee pads and leather wrist bands which offered support for what was about to come.
I stopped next to my Mistress. I felt a bit being pushed into my mouth and reins draping down my back. A sharp pull on the reins made me jerk my head upright.
Mistress then went about placing a saddle on my back with stirrups either side. As She cinched the saddle in place She gave my penis a quick slap. "I hope that little thing is not going to cause any trouble today".
I shook my head.
The next I knew I could feel Mistresses majestic weight as She swung on to the saddle. My back curved a little before a sharp swat from Mistresses crop made me straighten up. I heard the command and commenced my journey round the room. I knew some of Mistresses more powerful ponies could carry Her for 50 laps. Mistress knew I was not strong enough for that yet but did expect 20. I set off at a lively pace. I could hear Mistress saying "good boy" and this made me feel very proud. My penis, normally so small began to grow as I felt Mistresses strong thighs clamping on to my sides.
I recalled the first time I had been used in this way. I had decided to play up and test Mistress out. It was a very short rebellion and one which ended badly for me.
Mistress had taken me down to one side still with Her thighs wrapped around my middle. "You've just made your first and last mistake" I remember her whispering into my ear. "I've broken horses many times stronger than you"! She then proceeded to squeeze the life out of me. "I could break you in two if I wanted. Just be grateful it's not your neck in between my thighs"! The force on my ribs had been inmmense and I was sure something would give as I battled for breath. It had seemed like ages though it was probably no more than a couple on minutes but my Mistress had made her point. That had been my last attempt at being stubborn!
Back to the present I was slowing down after my early progress. My head dropped a couple of times and Mistress pulled sharply on the reins to get me to raise it. I was over the halfway mark but struggling. I stopped. "Come on pony you've got 6 more laps to do!" I felt a couple of swats on my naked bottom as Mistress used the crop. A squeeze from Her thighs and I was off again. My back ached, my legs ached but mostly it was my arms which hurt the most. Two more laps and I crashed forward on to the mat. Again I felt the crop. I was yanked up and Mistress reasserted her positon in the saddle. "I'll have to get you working on the weights to strengthen those puny arms of yours!". As much as I loved the feeling of Mistress riding me I was really struggling to carry Her. The final two laps were painful. Full of stops and starts and what racing stewards would call excesive use of the whip! I could sense saliva dripping from my mouth as I carried my Mistress round the mat for the final time. "Come on boy you're nearly there!" I so wanted to please Her! Despite all the pain and effort my cock was as hard as ever. After I triumphantly carried Mistress accross the line I collapsed in a heap. Mistress remained in the saddle and congratulated me. The combination of pleasing Her and feeling Her beautiful bottom pressing my cock into the mat was too much. I came!
As Mistress dismounted and ordered me to rise the mess I had made on the mat became evident. "I thought I told you to control yourself!" Mistress shouted. As I puffed and panted I looked down at the white puddle and guessed what was coming next.
"I suppose you're thirsty after giving your Mistress a ride". "Well there's something to drink". Mistress gave my bottom a firm hit with the crop and I began to lap up my own mess. I felt Mistresses boot on the back of my neck. "You're going nowhere until it's all disappeared".
I lapped away still exhausted yet proud to have carried my Mistress for so long.
Pain and pleasure. I wouldn't want it any other way!
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I heard the command from my Mistress Coldblooddedomme and knew not to keep Her waiting. I made my way crawling on all fours to where She stood. Mistress was wearing her black leather boots which came to just below her knees and put an extra 5 or 6 inches on to her height. Her fishnet stockings accentuated Her full powerful thighs. Above Her panties Mistress was wearing a claret coloured corset which showed off her fabulous figure.
In contrast I was naked but for a pair of knee pads and leather wrist bands which offered support for what was about to come.
I stopped next to my Mistress. I felt a bit being pushed into my mouth and reins draping down my back. A sharp pull on the reins made me jerk my head upright.
Mistress then went about placing a saddle on my back with stirrups either side. As She cinched the saddle in place She gave my penis a quick slap. "I hope that little thing is not going to cause any trouble today".
I shook my head.
The next I knew I could feel Mistresses majestic weight as She swung on to the saddle. My back curved a little before a sharp swat from Mistresses crop made me straighten up. I heard the command and commenced my journey round the room. I knew some of Mistresses more powerful ponies could carry Her for 50 laps. Mistress knew I was not strong enough for that yet but did expect 20. I set off at a lively pace. I could hear Mistress saying "good boy" and this made me feel very proud. My penis, normally so small began to grow as I felt Mistresses strong thighs clamping on to my sides.
I recalled the first time I had been used in this way. I had decided to play up and test Mistress out. It was a very short rebellion and one which ended badly for me.
Mistress had taken me down to one side still with Her thighs wrapped around my middle. "You've just made your first and last mistake" I remember her whispering into my ear. "I've broken horses many times stronger than you"! She then proceeded to squeeze the life out of me. "I could break you in two if I wanted. Just be grateful it's not your neck in between my thighs"! The force on my ribs had been inmmense and I was sure something would give as I battled for breath. It had seemed like ages though it was probably no more than a couple on minutes but my Mistress had made her point. That had been my last attempt at being stubborn!
Back to the present I was slowing down after my early progress. My head dropped a couple of times and Mistress pulled sharply on the reins to get me to raise it. I was over the halfway mark but struggling. I stopped. "Come on pony you've got 6 more laps to do!" I felt a couple of swats on my naked bottom as Mistress used the crop. A squeeze from Her thighs and I was off again. My back ached, my legs ached but mostly it was my arms which hurt the most. Two more laps and I crashed forward on to the mat. Again I felt the crop. I was yanked up and Mistress reasserted her positon in the saddle. "I'll have to get you working on the weights to strengthen those puny arms of yours!". As much as I loved the feeling of Mistress riding me I was really struggling to carry Her. The final two laps were painful. Full of stops and starts and what racing stewards would call excesive use of the whip! I could sense saliva dripping from my mouth as I carried my Mistress round the mat for the final time. "Come on boy you're nearly there!" I so wanted to please Her! Despite all the pain and effort my cock was as hard as ever. After I triumphantly carried Mistress accross the line I collapsed in a heap. Mistress remained in the saddle and congratulated me. The combination of pleasing Her and feeling Her beautiful bottom pressing my cock into the mat was too much. I came!
As Mistress dismounted and ordered me to rise the mess I had made on the mat became evident. "I thought I told you to control yourself!" Mistress shouted. As I puffed and panted I looked down at the white puddle and guessed what was coming next.
"I suppose you're thirsty after giving your Mistress a ride". "Well there's something to drink". Mistress gave my bottom a firm hit with the crop and I began to lap up my own mess. I felt Mistresses boot on the back of my neck. "You're going nowhere until it's all disappeared".
I lapped away still exhausted yet proud to have carried my Mistress for so long.
Pain and pleasure. I wouldn't want it any other way!
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