Expectations

It's funny how I always get new messages of Fetlife and CM with the usual diatribe of "omg your so pretty hot i wanna lick/suck/touch insert random body part" heres the thing i'm a model i get paid for looking the way i do if i didn't i wouldn't get paid for shoots if your only messaging me to tell me i'm hot thanks but no thanks it's slightly irksome and makes me feel like jerk off material which just pisses me off. Conversely their are also the opposites who message me saying i'm a fatass ect if you don't like curves take a hike darling cause no one invited you or your opinion i have a waist thats a full ten inches smaller than my bust and hips (over 10 inches actually and i'm working on getting it to 20 inches but thats besides the point)  and i run 2 miles a day plus move around hay bales grain etc and a watch what i eat my body is a temple granted a temple decorated with tattoos and piercings but it's still a temple that i take care of (if you can't care for yourself how can you care for others?) it just amuses me how people who aren't brave enough to put up their own pictures are brave enough to shit talk my body i'm proud of the way i look and your just a joke to me when you are so insecure you gotta troll a stranger.

Also i've noticed a influx of Dominants viewing my CM profile which i find amusing cause i have no interest in anyone Dominant whatsoever so i am not sure if they see me as a challenge or if they just want to troll me too i rarely get messages from them anymore since i don't even read Dominant messages it doesn't really matter but i just found it slightly strange.

I've noticed subs from the past popping up in my life a lot lately thinking i must've forgotten them or that they could redeem themselves in some cases that can be true in most cases i either dropped you or you disappeared and that typically means your not easily forgiven it's not that i hold grudges (at least not always) but trust honesty and obedience are all very important to me given that i hold these values highly once trust and respect is damaged then the repairs take time to rebuild trust and respect especially if i feel betrayed hopefully this gives some insight into my mind.

I've also come up with some new fun tasks that i'll hopefully get to try out sometime soon. with a sub or two haha. I heard from my ex sub that i freed so he could find a local Mistress and he did he is still to this day one of my favorite subs and i'm so happy to see him happily serving his new Mistress i do miss him from time to time he never really said no gave me what i wanted without games and he could make me smile and blush like very few have done before or since, hopefully someday soon i'll find another sub who can bring me happiness and give me hope that not everyone has an agenda.

Remember at the end of the day pain is weakness leaving the body and what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger.

Wishlist as always make me feel like a princess <3