for the love of bdsm

I have been in the BDSM lifestyle since i was 16 i started off as a submissive borderline slave and found that though i like rough sex dirty talk and masochism at my core i'm a dominant needless to say the relationship fizzled that started my interest in BDSM (that and he was a abusive butt hole) ever since i got into this lifestyle i've felt not that it was just something to amuse but part of who i was. I found my dominant side and found happiness in the play i participated in with others it wasn't until i was 18 that through fetish modeling one of my fellow models got me into financial domination saying that i'd probably enjoy it and she was right. Afterwards i couldn't get enough it was addictive those feelings of control power superiority matched with that deep connection you get from long term subs and slaves it was an amazing feeling.

I have seen subs come and go some missed dearly others good riddance to bad rubbish, i've had fetishes grow that i never expected would and fetishes i loved that no longer interest me i've grown as a person to where often times 18 year old me feels like a completely different person. in the end tribute or no tribute i will always be a domme i often catch myself domming my fiancee in day to day life without realizing it until he points it out which he finds funny.

I find sometimes humility in dominants can be hard to find not saying all are that way but quite a few are, i often feel like i'm a different kind of domme because in my day to day i'm fairly meek and quiet typically only expressing myself through what i wear my hair color etc until i meet certain people then a special part of me that i keep hidden from the world comes out and i feel a special kind of freedom. in the end for me it's more about being a part of who i am i love my fetishes i love subs who share my fetishes especially if their respectful. I hate it when boys try to top from the bottom it bugs my dominant sensibilities if your going to be pushy why not just be a male dominant i've never gotten the topping from the bottom logic personally then again male logic i think can often be lost on the feminine gender.

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